Finding Body Confidence & Looking Past Insecurities

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For the past 5 years I’ve had nothing but insecurities and been self conscious of my body.

I can’t wear tight clothing, you won’t catch me in a swimmer or bikini, wearing shorts or crop tops. As soon as I catch a glimpse of my body in an unflattering way my mood instantly changes.

Anything showing my waist is a no go, I can’t stand having anything tight fitting around my waist & hips area. “My Problem Areas.” Because I will automatically feel that its all anyone can see.

I’ve been told to snap out of it but its not that easy. To have these insecurities & for someone to tell you to snap out of it will never help. No matter how well you eat, how much weight you start to loose, how much you go to the gym. Getting over these insecurities takes time.

It makes me so angry & so upset that I can’t wear what I want because I feel nothing but self conscious in these clothes. ย And never mind stripping down into your undies or even worse nothing at all. Because all you feel is the person your with starting at your problem areas.

I recently went on holiday & the week before I spent a whole day crying over my insecurities. I was trying on bikini’s and all my summer dresses and all I could see was my insecurities. In the end I was dreading going on holiday as I felt that everyone is going to notice my imperfections.

I know it’s horrible to say you hate any part of your body because I’m grateful that I have a strong healthy body. But that day I hated everything about my body. I was so angry at myself for letting it affect me so much.

Now I’m not over weight, I try to eat a healthy diet. I go to the gym 4 times a week and I don’t aspire to be super model thin. I love that I have curves and I wouldn’t change that. What I want to change is my mentality towards my body shape, I want to stop having these insecurities.

By changing my diet and increasing my gym work outs I am starting to notices little differences for the better. My mentality is slowly slowly changing. These insecurities won’t go away overnight, they won’t go away in a month, they’ll go away when I start to love my body for how it is and I’m able to look past my own imperfections.

And back to my holiday, as you’ll see in these photos yes I wore a tight dress, I wore bikini’s “plural.” I wore shorts too no matter how much I hate wearing them… Because frankly I was too bloody hot to give a damn about what my stomach looked like…

I hope this post helped if you too have body insecurities. Its never easy too look past you insecurities especially in this world of social media and celebrities but one day we will look past it and love our imperfections.

 

 

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5 Comments

  1. August 11, 2017 / 8:51 am

    We always see the worst in ourselves! Try to focus on the positives, easier said than done I know!

  2. August 11, 2017 / 5:18 pm

    So glad you felt more comfortable on holiday to wear the clothes you wanted. That’s a huge step. I always struggle with body issues and like you say no amount of healthy eating and working out will change your insercurities, it’s all mental. But we’ll get there. Love this post ๐Ÿ’•

  3. August 12, 2017 / 3:03 pm

    There’s nothing worse than feeling insecure, I’m so bad for it… I wish I had some sort of body confidence but I just can’t seem to get it!

    Thanks for sharing this lovely ๐Ÿ’•

  4. August 12, 2017 / 9:21 pm

    I totally get that hearing it from someone else doesn’t really help when you can’t see it yourself, but I’ll say it anyway: I think you have a fabulous figure and you rock that dress beautifully!

    xo

  5. August 13, 2017 / 11:56 am

    This post is SO relatable. I’ve felt the same about myself for so many years, but it’s only recently that I’ve started to feel more comfortable with my body. Aimee, you’re beautiful. I know it’s not always easy to accept compliments when feeling the way you have been, but you really are beautiful, and you look amazing in that dress. Also, the photos in this post are gorgeous! I love that you felt confident enough to write a post about your insecurities, but I can’t see anything other than beauty. xx

    Rosie Eva Millard

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